Friday, October 5, 2012
well ... I don't know what has gotten into me tonight.. I am usually not much of a writer on here.. I guess I find it easier to speak through music or pictures, may be that is because I don't know who I am writing to.. so this, this is to me.
This week has been a serious struggle for me. I am doing way to many things at once right now, being pulled in way to many directions. It is hard for me to find peace. So today, I was driving around in my jeep, wind rushing past my face, silence filled my head, everything became a blur... And then... t was like i remembered how to breathe. I gasped for air, readjusted my eyes and everything around me found its way back to being beautiful again. There was so much I wanted to feel so much I wanted to share " my legs were tickling" as my sister and I use to say. I was reminded of who I am. I think sometimes I am afraid to voice it or to explain to people what I want to do or what I want to share. I don't want to seem overly confident in who I am, nor selfish or any of that. But what I have inside me is something that I cannot keep to myself. It is not meant for just myself. What I have inside me is meant to be shared, with everyone. And I will not deny it. I will not push it aside, give up, stop working, look another way until I have done all I can do. I am constantly reacquainting myself with well.. myself. Meeting new parts of me that have been hiding or have been waiting to be discovered. I have two heartbeats, two minds, and two forces because.. she lives in me, through me and around me. And so forgive me for talking in a state of we, but we wanted it, we still do and we won't stop till we do it.
to the moon and back